One day before her birthday.

It's her birthday tommorow.

I used to wish that we celebrate her birthday together.
I really wanted to.
We ain't together, we love each other still and I want her back desperately.
I can't get over her, even if Eva Green comes and seduces me.
I love you.
Please come back.
Can't imagine my life without you.
I'm you.



AIEEE is tommorow and I'm not scared at all!
Losers feel scared of examinations!

I leave for Darjeeling tommorow, in the evening.
Pretty excited!
Now, if my luck is with me, both of my parents won't be there.
Mom will be at Kolkata because she has meetings.
Dad will be at Chennai for a seminar.
That leaves ME alone.

And I don't like it.
Why?
Because I will have a lot of responsibilities!
I mean, I will have to govern the house.
See if people are doing their work properly or not!
Order my food to be cooked of my choice!
You see, I respect people elder than me and I don't like ordering them.
Goes against my principles.

I will have bikes.
Cars.
Cash.
Computer.
TV.
Petrol.
Friends.
INOX.
What else do I need to freak out?

Anyways.
Will keep you updated.
Affections.

Radhika, if you are reading this, then let me tell you, I love you a lot!
Come back.
I'm sorry for whatever misunderstandings we had.
God bless you and have an awesome birthday.
May we spend all your birthdays together.
With you in my arms and me feeding you cake with my mouth. Ha!


Regards.

Return.

Wooh!
That was a long gap!

Many months have passed by and a lot has happened!

All these examinations with scary abbreviations never cease to trail my arse.

Well.
The latest is that I have 'Broken up'.
If you remember, a girl existed by the name of 'Radhika.'
Well, we have broken up finally!
She dumped me (my version).
We broke up (her version).

This relationship never existed.
I mean, it was a time pass relationship.
We never loved each other. All those fake consolations and salutations bugged me no end!
'I love you' was a joke. A kind of salutation.

I have moved on. And I can't spend my entire life dreaming about a girl who never ever loved me.
Well, Radhika, if you're reading this, let me tell you something honestly. This relationship never existed.

The guy who brainwashed Radhika against me-I swear. The day I come to know your name, I will kill you. I really mean it. You are a sadistic asshole who can't see other people happy. Brothel Born Bastard!





I'm in Kolkata at present.
I have examinations. And few other commitments too.

I really don't believe in love now.
People are Selfish. Cunning.


Anyways.
My head feels haywired right now.
Don't want to write much.
Later.

No fake salutations.
Bye.

The 12th day of February.

What was I doing all these days?

Well, the following lines are for someone.
Someone....ermm...forget it.
Here it goes.

' Hey girl
I see you standin next to him
And i can tell you aint happy...
You rather be on the side of the club
Ballin' out with a niggah like me...
I can see you imaginin' those thoughts in your head
By the way your staring'...
I'll help your fantasies come true
All you gotta do is look me in my eyes
Look me in my eyes(5x)
Ill take you to that place
All i ask is look me in my eyes
Look me in my eyes(3x)
Baby look me in my eyes(1x)'


It's a very meaningful song.

I am feeling quite low these days.

I lost a friend called Disha for you.
I lost my best friend Shruti for you.
What else do you want me to do?



It's a gut feeling.
What's my condition like at present?

I am shattered like pieces of glass. And you took one lying piece of glass and stabbed my heart. You stabbed it repeatedly.

I trusted a girl very easily. I shouldn't have. I shared the biggest secret of my life with her. I shouldn't have.
With great excitement and enthusiasm, I opened her profile to get a photo of hers to post it in my 'Special People. Special Reasons.' album.
She had banned me from seeing her photos.
I don't know why.


Even I have banned everyone from seeing my photos in facebook.
I have changed my password.
People tend to take me for granted. They spy on me.


It's time to bring a few changes.

Fuck me and my intoxicated life.
Peace out.

The 25th day of January .

Sorry for the delay .
Had certain important things to attend to .

Will start from where I stopped last time .

Well .
I was quite punctual in reaching the Railway station .
Only to be informed that the train had been cancelled due to heavy fog in the NCR .
Now what do I do ?

Waited till the morning .
A train to Delhi was scheduled to arrive at 11 am .
I was running low on cash so I got myself a '2nd class' ticket .
Actually it was me and Vishal . (Dad asked me to bring him along for my own 'safety' .) xD

So there we were , 2 well dressed arse headed noobs making way to the '2nd class compartment '.

I saw it from 3 coaches far .People were huddling around it as if it was Angelina Jolie naked .The fear grasped me .HOW THE FUCK WAS I TO TRAVEL 500 kms IN THIS ? o_O


After whacking my brain...we headed to the nearest 'Sleeper class' coach .
That was 'S1' .

We thought that if we sit near the aisle ,nobody would spot us for tickets !

Our plain failed . =/

The Ticket checker asked us for our tickets .
Then with a huge smile he said 'Beta...aaplog sleeper ka ticket katvalo...yahan par baithna dangerous hai'

So there he was ,a honest government servant .
Coughed up 500 bucks more (Courtesy Vishal) .
And we got into the Sleeper Class with MANY MANY people around us .

I was bored .
Blank .

The Train was supposed to reach Delhi at 6pm but it reached 8 hours late . =/
Courtesy the fog once again .


Somehow ,I managed to reach the Shangri la .
Threw myself on the bed and had the best sleep in recent days .
Woke up at 6 .
Got ready for my exam .

I directly reached the American Embassy School .
Now ,there they were !
The rich spoilt brats of Delhi .
Didn't look like an examination . Looked like a fashion show or something like that .
Mercedes' and BMW' were a shame that moment !

NRI Girls with their Parents made their way through the gate talking in an American mixed Hindi accent . xD

The examination went good .
And I spent the rest of the day cruising around Delhi .
Seeing places .

Mom came in the evening and I boarded another 'would be late' train back to Kota .
And so I am back !

Typed too much .
Guess I bugged you . xD
Love .

We return . We start .

Well.

As you many know , this is my second blog and officialy , this blog is my 'own' blog .
I quit the last one because it was quite dull , sophisticated and jinxed up .
All my updates will be available here .

Life's been dull .
Sick . Boring .

I'm in a mess now .
Some problems related to my love life .

'I didn't know how to swim .Yet ,I dived inside the deeper part of the swimming pool .'

We fell in love with 'each other '.
We will face the problem 'together '.
We will be happy 'together '.



I'm leaving for Delhi tonight .
All by myself .
I have my SAT examination on the 23rd .
And I will be back on the dawn of 24th .

Will be coming online on the 24th only .
Till then ,
Love to all .